I am beyond annoyed with teenage drama bullshit!!!!
my daughter and I have a close relationship, she tells me everything about her life and probably more than I should know.
Parents will say ohh I wish my child would talk to me or be like that with me but then turn around and talk shit and say that I am too involved in my childs life. Well screw you.
A friend of my daughter who hasn't talked to her in months before Christmas, RANDOMLY sends her a screen shot of a photo of my daughters IG page and says can you delete this picture.
no fucking HELLO hi HOW ARE YOU no phone call nothing. JUST DELETE the photo.
how many times my child has reached out to see if this kid has wanted to talk or hang out with not reply. or a rude one like I am at dance or I am going to bed.
then she sees that the girl was hanging out with another girl that has been my daughters BFF yet when this kid got a boyfriend magically things she is the shit now and wants nothing to do with my kid.... OHH did I mention I wouldn't lie for the kid. She wont tell her mom she has a boyfriend. Using other kids to go out with them to meet up with the boy. Ya whatever.
So shady bullshit. I hate teens just say what you mean. Actually these are teens that turn into adults that never say how they feel and just have no regard for other people and how they feel. They just hold everything inside walk away and never fix relationships. They put no value in people and relationships and today we are here just empty and lonely wondering why.
THIS IS FUCKING WHY!
so ya I can not stand teens and the bs that they do to each other. makes me livid.
then when you call a parent to see if they want to have the kids work it out and they are the same fuckingway....oh ya. that's even better.
I am done for today.
Friday, January 27, 2017
Friday, June 12, 2015
My dream of MM
WOW.
the realness of the dream i had this morning was incredible and its still with me today
I was in a hospital visiting my mother. it was busy with hustle and bustle of the hospital and i was shocked to see my friend Mary Margaret. I couldn't believe she was there and what was she doing in a Psyc hospital setting?? anyways she was in a rush and so was I we had hugged before but I didn't see the initial meeting where we had met and hugged i just saw us walking down the hall and knew I was walking with her and my mom trailing behind to meet someone who had a package she told them to get for me. She made me sign the package that i had received it and i said what is this. It was a dress. Orange and white inside. and she was off. I said why are you giving me this. she said I have to go in her abrupt i have to go style. not in a mean way just her gotta go way. and she was gone. I was there standing with this package yellow manila envelope with a dress inside. it was like i was standing there frozen and everything was moving fast around me but i was moving in slow motion as I realized Mary Margaret isn't here anymore. . She is in heaven, and my best friend has left this world maybe she touched down for a moment in my dream.
I miss her so very much. Not many people I trust to talk to like I did her. My deepest feelings she really understood and really cared about me and I cared about her.
I woke up startled late for work. and today I feel like I lost her all over again.
<3
the realness of the dream i had this morning was incredible and its still with me today
I was in a hospital visiting my mother. it was busy with hustle and bustle of the hospital and i was shocked to see my friend Mary Margaret. I couldn't believe she was there and what was she doing in a Psyc hospital setting?? anyways she was in a rush and so was I we had hugged before but I didn't see the initial meeting where we had met and hugged i just saw us walking down the hall and knew I was walking with her and my mom trailing behind to meet someone who had a package she told them to get for me. She made me sign the package that i had received it and i said what is this. It was a dress. Orange and white inside. and she was off. I said why are you giving me this. she said I have to go in her abrupt i have to go style. not in a mean way just her gotta go way. and she was gone. I was there standing with this package yellow manila envelope with a dress inside. it was like i was standing there frozen and everything was moving fast around me but i was moving in slow motion as I realized Mary Margaret isn't here anymore. . She is in heaven, and my best friend has left this world maybe she touched down for a moment in my dream.
I miss her so very much. Not many people I trust to talk to like I did her. My deepest feelings she really understood and really cared about me and I cared about her.
I woke up startled late for work. and today I feel like I lost her all over again.
<3
Thursday, June 11, 2015
randomly i am going to talk about random thoughts. Why not?
i honestly have no idea what i am doing.
i needed to have another set of blogging for my other random set of thoughts .
yes i have random moment thoughts like most people i think. i just from one thing to another instantly.
i learned this just being at work and in life.
I use to journal and have a diary and loved it until some ex boyfriend decided he would take it and lock himself in the bathroom of MY house and read the entire thing. He said he found it the most interesting read of his life. I felt invaded and betrayed. That relationship went down hill very fast. I never wrote in a book again. It takes too much time and honestly Time is something I do not have much of in life lately.
Time is filled with life. some fun and some joy some I can not even remember
Honestly I would have to sit and really look at a calendar to tell you what i did last week and i really would not remember the emotions that went with it. the flaw of a trauma filled childhood.
SUCKS!
I can tell you the stories of things I know and that have stayed. the actual feelings I have to think about to feel and when the come its like a dam breaking open and i fear i wont be able to close it and something horrible will come out and wont stop. but at times know I will be able to . I do not like to cry at all. Its horrible. the tears and fear and the emotions. Sadness sucks. its mostly the feeling in my chest of pain around my heart that breaking feeling that i dont like.
i though i knew heart break of relationships but the ultimate heart break is when you loose the person you love of your life. that would be my grandmother. the women i admire and miss every single day of my life. oh god here comes that frigging tear...... wait i gotta get my break for a second here and take a few big gulps or I'm going to break. ok wiped the tears. now she was my love. i can tell you tha i love her so much its annoying. i listen to her 2 last saved messaged that give me peace and actually calm me down when i am about to break.
she saved my life basically .
Nana and Grandpa took me in like Annie. I was 6 happiest time of my life as a kid as far as I can remember. I have no idea the sadness around me with the whole situation.
My grandfather spoiled me the minute I moved in. Toys like you would not believe. I never a life like they gave me. but 6 months later that would change.
i gotta go for now.
i needed to have another set of blogging for my other random set of thoughts .
yes i have random moment thoughts like most people i think. i just from one thing to another instantly.
i learned this just being at work and in life.
I use to journal and have a diary and loved it until some ex boyfriend decided he would take it and lock himself in the bathroom of MY house and read the entire thing. He said he found it the most interesting read of his life. I felt invaded and betrayed. That relationship went down hill very fast. I never wrote in a book again. It takes too much time and honestly Time is something I do not have much of in life lately.
Time is filled with life. some fun and some joy some I can not even remember
Honestly I would have to sit and really look at a calendar to tell you what i did last week and i really would not remember the emotions that went with it. the flaw of a trauma filled childhood.
SUCKS!
I can tell you the stories of things I know and that have stayed. the actual feelings I have to think about to feel and when the come its like a dam breaking open and i fear i wont be able to close it and something horrible will come out and wont stop. but at times know I will be able to . I do not like to cry at all. Its horrible. the tears and fear and the emotions. Sadness sucks. its mostly the feeling in my chest of pain around my heart that breaking feeling that i dont like.
i though i knew heart break of relationships but the ultimate heart break is when you loose the person you love of your life. that would be my grandmother. the women i admire and miss every single day of my life. oh god here comes that frigging tear...... wait i gotta get my break for a second here and take a few big gulps or I'm going to break. ok wiped the tears. now she was my love. i can tell you tha i love her so much its annoying. i listen to her 2 last saved messaged that give me peace and actually calm me down when i am about to break.
she saved my life basically .
Nana and Grandpa took me in like Annie. I was 6 happiest time of my life as a kid as far as I can remember. I have no idea the sadness around me with the whole situation.
My grandfather spoiled me the minute I moved in. Toys like you would not believe. I never a life like they gave me. but 6 months later that would change.
i gotta go for now.
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